thanks 'gay' ho for what you did for me and well what you're doing for me. i can give you a whole lot of crap but boy, it sort of wake me up.

i mean i'm allowed to think about it, (i know i am) but thanks for helping. i won't forcefully try stopping, cause i guess it's already in me but i'll do my best stopping it. you know what i mean. :)

i've taken a turn. i decided i'm going to help my family as much as possible now. i'm not going to be lazy and cause of that stupid laziness not going to help them. it's something i never did. but i'll do it with my heart. i guess honestly if i really don't feel like doing it i just won't.

i guess there isn't need to impress. cause i guess if people can't accept on who i am, then i guess we aren't that great after all.

fuck denial.